Secret Intrusive Thoughts

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Do I want to stab myself in the neck?  Have I the capability?

How is there something rather than nothing at all?

How did I appear to that friend of mine, was I weird was I really odd?

How did I appear to that family member? Did I say everything I should have said?

Do I need to stab myself in the neck?  Is it just an intrusive thought?

How on earth am I suppose to clean up this flat with all these thoughts and depression on top?

I feel worthless, yes I am worthless.

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These are intrusive thoughts because they cause significant amounts of anxiety and interrupt whatever we may be doing.  I have worked through most of them and basically you just have to really GET their nature.  They are intrusive thoughts, not normal thoughts.  They are also an excuse for the brain to run schemes on you and plot against your existence and wellbeing… well that’s more the depression that comes with it.  They are thoughts that get stuck whilst the normal person can reject them as tom foolery.

 

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